when school started, i had this strange feeling of restlessness. i couldn’t understand why, but it made me feel so….bored. then, a few nights ago i had the epiphany that this is the first time i’ve gone to the same school for 2 years in a row since 6th grade. wow. it’s strange how at the end of every school year, i sort of mentally detach myself from everything, as a defense mechanism to protect myself from leaving again. except…this is the first year in five years where i finally get to stay where i am. i didn’t really realize or appreciate that until now.
it’s a comforting thought. but at the same time, it feels like staying in place is holding me back. i feel myself moving 100 miles an hour, almost all day. from the time i wake in the morning to the time i drift off to sleep, all i think about is the future, and what’s next, where i’m going, and blahblahblah. it’s driving me nuts in a way, because i feel like i need to move on…but the world isn’t moving with me.
anyway. today we finally finished the house. it looks nice.
internship is good, but i’ll go into more detail later.
